Time passes so slowly, yet so quickly all at the same
time. Sometimes a single day may feel like an eternity only for me to realize a
few days later that an entire month has passed before my eyes. We all seem to
want more time yet we are all in such a rush. Even I find myself wanting time
to pass more quickly in hope that in the foreseeable future my life will take a
turn for the better. Though I am not able to live out my life as vicariously as
I would like I think it is important to find at least one good thing (even
though there are always many) in each day and appreciate it for what it was.
In the past five months I have found myself in a stagnant
state. Another diagnoses has been acquired, thankfully it is something non
life-threatening. It just seems to leave a few more missing pieces to the
puzzle. I am still dealing with reoccurring infections (other than Lyme and
co’s) and my Mono has also flared up. I have had an increase in my Lyme and
Chiari symptoms, some symptoms which are hard to differentiate whether they are
truly from Lyme or Chiari. Therefore I have decided to have my Chiari surgery
and will be having that done later this summer. Hopefully that will help solve
and alleviate some symptoms so that my doctor will be willing to start me on a
better Lyme treatment again. So for now it is just the hurry up and wait game
to see where I will be after surgery.
I am also debating searching for another Lyme doctor. My
last LLMD was good and did everything he knew how, but it’s kind of
disheartening when your LLMD dumps you because they are out of ideas and you
are out of their league. As much as I dread even the thought of this, I think I
am going to have to be bold and go to one of the big guy LLMD’s. I just need to
start playing the lottery in hopes of winning big cash to pay for it! At least
I have my local MD! I firmly believe I wouldn’t be alive today if it weren’t
for him and all he has done for me!
